Wednesday, May 28th, 2003, at 7:38 AM, my world fell and shattered, basically emotionally killing me, repeated stab wounds, if you will.  I'll give a full account, if not now then this weekend for sure.  And i have just decided to do it this weekend.  Ashley, if you're reading this, I never was angry for this, any of it, and though i still have many things to talk to you about concerning the issue, i don't think you'll talk straight with me.  I believe you'll just become cold like you were Monday and take the easy way out, just hide yourself from any and all pain in this issue.  If you do want to talk to me about this, or you think you can at least carry a civil conversation about it with me, then you can call me or e-mail me or something.  And I hope you don't hate me for any of this, since I know i'm being such a dick about talking about the whole issue.  Okay!! enough.  I'll update it this weekend.